Why Are You Angry?

HE:

Why are you angry?

ME:

Am not angry, I'm disappointed.

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ME: I forgot my phone at home °~°

FRIEND: Don't you have a love life?! :P

ME: °,°

Everyday, I fight a battle.

A battle between getting up from the annoying alarm and pressing the snooze,

again and again and back to La La Land.

I often succumb to the latter which always got me doing RUSH HOUR 3.

To which, one day, resulted to forgetting my phone on my bed

(over jealous here) for half day.

I took a half day leave from work for I needed to process something

and went home straight to collect my phone and I came home to this:  

my kind of normal when phone's not attended for half a day

RUSH HOUR 4.

I so wanted to fly to my scheduled appointment but

I needed to go to my bank first for some docs:

Me: Hi, I need these get stamped.

He: No, we don't do that.

Me: What do you mean?

He: We provide the copies here.

Me: Okay, please provide me with theses dates.

He: 150AED all in all.

Me: What? Why are you charging that much?

He: Why are you angry?

Me: Am not angry, I'm disappointed. I don't have to pay for those.

It should be free of charge.

(He was preparing the docs while I was venting out anyway and..)

He: Here (handing me the papers)

Me: Seriously, 150AED?!

He: Kalas.

Me: *staring at him, confused.

He: That's free (and smiled)

Me: Oh gaad, you got me. I'll get you back on this!

(while I hurriedly prepped my things, stood and ready to go, he quipped)

He: Sure. You're welcome, Aidalyn
(Turned to look at him while kinda surprised on how he knew my name and immediately realized that it's on the docs - ugh! - I was eaten by haste. I wasn't on Earth for a while.)

Me: Thank you, (searched for his name at the plaque on his table) Samir Ibrahim.

*Oh, them guys. mga pa-cute °,°

LESSON:

Don't let stress overwhelm you.

You'd get tripped on, big time.

And again, it all boil down to time management (ugh!).

I Will Make Time

Me: It's almost winter! Let's go back to Abu Dhabi and re-visit the Grand Mosque! And hey, we need to do the Musamdam sea tour again!

Friends: Sure. And, when are you gonna be free?

I was elated by the thought that winter is just around the corner. From the soft-cold wind blow to the Brrr-ing temperature drop to 10°C (tolerable still with thick and layered clothing), I surely dig it over the summers here (who doesn't?). And, it only means one thing: Outdoors!

As I was excitedly blabbing about where I want to go and what I want to do on the weekends of early winter, I got stopped by a quip, 'when are you gonna be free again?', which had me re-tracking each weekend with scheduled appointments and commitments from my phone.

My giddiness to every outdoor fun planned for each weekend gradually died down as I realized that I am bound to volunteerism for the next three months. And, only God knows when I am going to stop since I enjoy and definitely love what I am doing.

I don't whine or cry for a break from what I do for there's no question to my commitment to helping others. However, the nomad part of me screams for a little adventure and where on earth can I find time?

I lecture about time management. I give talks about how important it is and that it should be taken seriously as it plays a vital role and could affect our efficiency and productivity in our day to day living. It is already regarded as cliche yet our feeling of content, satisfaction and fulfillment depends on it. And now, I am the one who needs lecturing.

I remember an Ex once told me over a heated argument of having no time for each other anymore, 'make time', and that 'there's no such thing as trying, it's only either you do it or you don't'. A very timely reminiscing (lol), just when I need the words of wisdom to guide me (haha). Indeed, we learn from our past (do we? :P).

I have to make time. I have to make time to go out and be one with the nature again. I have to make time to unleash the adventurous in me to recharge its drained spirit. I have to make time to bathe in the uncertainties with joy of not knowing what are bound to happen. I have to make time for the vast horizon to fully embrace me away from the hustling metro. I have to make time for a Me Time. I have to make time.

I will make time.